He Wants YOU!

Hey guys! It’s been a while! So much has happened since the last time I wrote. As you might already know Shane and I found out that we are expecting our first child. It was a big surprise but we couldn’t be happier! Let me tell you, pregnancy is an emotional and physical roller coaster, so shout out to all you moms out there!

Truth time… during these last few weeks I have been slacking on my alone time with God. You know how they say you don’t know what you have till its gone, well the same goes with God. I have missed our relationship so much. I didn't realize how important my time with God was. The devil slipped in at my weakest point, when I was questioning the Almighty. I didn't know how to react to being pregnant, and instead of spending time asking God the devil filled my mind with all the things that could go wrong. I know this has happened to all of you. It took a while for me to realize that whatever happens is Gods plan; I just have to trust in Him. If you are going through a similar situation where you are having a hard time giving God everything, just let go. Release everything over to Him and once you feel how awesome it is you will never want to go back! While getting back into my time with God I remembered how much God wants to be with us. 

He wants us. He wants each one of us, but we get to busy, we forget, we don't feel worthy enough, Satan puts all these things in our heads to keep us away from God. Have you ever wondered if God understands when were too busy to spend time with Him? Shane always jokes around and says, "I'm glad Jesus wasn't to busy to die for you." Even though he is joking it always gets me thinking! It isn't easy friends but it is worth it. I'm currently reading an awesome book by Joanna Weaver called "Having a Mary Heart in a Martha World" , I highly recommend it to every woman out there. In the book she quotes the story told by her friend, "She tells the story of having company over for dinner one night. She'd worked hard all day on a beautiful meal, four courses and a fancy dessert. It was going to be wonderful. But somewhere around the middle of the afternoon, Teri realized she was hungry. 'I'd been so busy cooking and cleaning,' she says, 'I had completely missed lunch.' But it was only four o'clock and the guests weren't due until six. 'I always kept a hidden stash of snicker bars,' she says with a grin. So she grabbed a couple of candy bars and sat down to rest, enjoying her clean living room and beautifully set table. 'It did the trick! My stomach wasn't growling anymore. I was able to take my shower, do my hair, and get dressed with plenty of time to spare.' It wasn't until Teri sat down to dinner that she discovered the problem. 'There I was with that wonderful dinner I'd worked all day to prepare, but my appetite was gone!' The mid afternoon snack had taken the edge off her hunger. She ended up picking at her plate as she watched everyone else dig in, enjoying their meal. 'The Lord spoke to me at that moment,' Teri says. 'He showed me that we often fill our loved with spiritual snicker bars, things like friends, book, and shopping. They may be good things, completely innocent things but not when they take the edge off our hunger for God. Teri's illustration has stayed with me for years because it applies so aptly to my own life. I constantly fight the tendency to fill the God-shaped hole he created in me with fluffy stuff. I don't like loneliness, so I fill the space with phone calls and social events and trips to the mall, but loneliness, as my friend Jeanne Mayo puts it, can be 'Gods call to fellowship with him.' I don't like quietness, so I fill up the silence with sitcoms and talk shows, Christian music and CNN, but it was in the quiet of the night that Samuel heard God's voice."

This definitely got me thinking. What do you do with your time? Are you fillling it with spiritual snickers? Do you want to be close to God but you just can't? I want to encourage you to take a deep look into how you spend your time. If you can't seem to get close to God maybe you need to change your daily routine and put Him first because He longs for you to do so. Maybe you're close to God but have fallen away, I promise you that He misses you. We all live crazy lives and are busy, but we should never be to busy for God, I know its hard, I fail at it too. Don't give up though; keep trying, the more you dig deeper in fellowship with God the hungrier you will get for Him. The most important time is that alone time! Fill your life with Godly things, things that doesn't make you angry because that is what the devil wants most. Lastly, don't get comfortable and think you are okay, there is always more room for Jesus no matter how old you are and there is always room to improve, remember we are not perfect! You are wanted my the great I Am! My sweet husband said Wednesday night at church, "If you are good enough for God, then you are more than good enough for anybody else."

When you pray, go into your room, close the door and pray to your father who is unseen. Then your father, who sees what is done in secret, will reward you. Matthew 6:6 

you are loved, you are forgiven, you are wanted

His daughter,
      Starla Conroy 

 

We can't wait to meet our sweet baby! Heart beat was 176 and the estimated due date is February 2nd! God has an awesome plan in store for His three children! Please pray for a healthy baby and a healthy pregnancy! Thank you!!